(Please note: I used Hypnobabies hypnobirthing techniques. I’ve been taught to use different vocabulary without negative connotation – “pressure waves” refers to contractions, and “birthing time” refers to labor)
I was 9 days past my “guess date”, so I went to see my midwife Liz at 11 am on October 27, 2017, to get my progress checked. I was 3cm dilated, which surprised me because I hadn’t felt any pressure waves, only mild menstrual-like cramping. Knowing that my birthing time was near, I went home and practiced my hypnosis techniques.
My water broke at 4:15 pm when I awoke from hypnosis. Things moved fairly quickly because I was in a relaxed environment. My doula Kelly arrived around 7 pm and I instantly felt soothed by her presence. She applied counter-pressure on my back and spoke to me in the most absolutely calming voice. Liz and her assistant Annette arrived around 8:30 pm.
At 10:22 pm, I got in the tub as I could sense my transformation stage was near. With each pressure wave, I curved my back as if I was cradling my baby and Christopher poured warm water on the exposed parts of my back and belly, nurturing his creation from the outside dimension.
As my pressure waves got stronger, I rooted myself deeper into hypnosis, yet I was still present in the moment. Passionately alive. Liberated by the ability to feel the magical life force inside me. I surrendered to the storm of sensations, letting the current take me back home. I knew that every vibration and every movement was bringing my baby closer to being in my arms.
At this point, I had a fleeting thought that I would have to go to the hospital because my energy was so depleted. I looked at Kelly and told her how tired I was. “Sleep,” she gently whispered. So I did as she said, and I slept for 30 seconds in between each pressure wave.
Progress slowed down as I experienced an anterior cervical lip complication, meaning the edge of my cervix was swollen and in the way of baby’s head. Liz assisted me through it and I reached full dilation at 3:32 am, but I still had difficulty crowning my baby in the tub.
I looked over at my birthing team and saw how tired they were. I was trying to get this baby out as quickly as I could, but something was holding me back. Something didn’t feel right. Deep down to the marrow of my bones, I knew that I wasn’t meant to have a water birth.
At 4:24 am, I followed my intuition and moved to the floor, and with unshakable strength, my baby started crowning. “Be brave,” said Liz. She gently guided my fingertips towards the top of my baby’s ethereal head. When I felt her bare skin blanketed by a sheet of purity, I drifted within myself and poured every ounce of love and light energy into the final moment of transcendence. I felt the release of pressure alchemizing the expansion of my soul in certainties and drowned in an ocean of divine bliss as tears cascaded down my face. “We did it, we did it.”
Dakota was caught by her father on October 28, 2017 at 4:42am. This was the moment I transformed from maiden to mother. This was the moment I gave birth to my daughter. This was the moment I gave birth to my truest and highest self.
Through the power of belief, I had the birth of my dreams. I didn’t tear (thanks to Liz for applying olive oil to my perineum), and I felt no pain during my birthing time (by putting myself under hypnosis). I honestly couldn’t have asked for a better first birth experience. I truly hope my story empowers other women to not fear childbirth, but to embrace it. Our bodies were made for this.
Mother: Stephanie Kieu @steffykieu